Good 'n' Bad DAY 5

Hi all
So far so good considering my lack of sleep, I was still clock watching at 4.30 and was up at 8, strange thing is I am so full of energy it's freaky, the house is a palace that Anthea Turner would be jealous of, I just can't stop cleaning. ( I will stop at ironing templates and a thermometer to test the temp of the dishwater) I'm not worrying about it, I figure that if I've got this much energy then I must be getitng enough sleep.
Feeling pretty damn good actually, keith keeps chucking in the 'now's not a good time to stop, you should concentrate on going on a diet first then give up the smoking, I can see he's getting worried that I am serious, he didn't expect me to last the first day. He doesn't have to worry, I'm not moaning, I quite like sitting there studying him while he smokes, it's a kind of therapy for me, without him knowing I watch every gulp of thick yellow blue smoke he inhales and I'm thankful I have made this decision, how long could my lungs with that kind of abuse before rebelling? Pure unfiltered rollie smoking, straight from the roll ups to my lungs, what a crazy thing to continue doing, unless I really don't give a damn about seeing my kids grow up, and being a special nan to their kids.
I used to say oh well, when you time's up your time's up, I was so fed up with everything that I wasn't really bothered about the future, what I didn't realise was that the smoking was draining the life from me and making me feel like that. Since making this decision I feel like I have so much more to look forward to, it's so surprising the burden of guilt and worry you carry when you smoke, you really don't relaise how big it is until you quit.
I'm not fooling myself, I know I've got a long way to go, but somehow this time it's different, I'm doing it for me, not because my father in law hates it, not because I can't afford it, not because keith won't quit unless I do to, this time it's for me and I am enjoying it, I even find myself smiling and talking to my cravings, come on then, do your worst, I love my life more than I love you.
I told Keith I'm not on a diet, I am merely watching what I eat, it's no sweat, my chocolate addiction is as bad as nicotine, I sit there of an evening sniffing the easter eggs, I'm sure those cravings will subside also. I am going to quit tea and coffee too, everytimeI hada cuppa yesterday my head thumped for a couple of hours, so for the moment caffiene will have to be ruled out. I'll try the decaf and see if that makes a difference to my jitters, I had them again last night, keith was watching me as i was dozing off ( no not lovingly, he was reading a book and getting annoyed with me keep jumping) he said it was very odd, my leg would jump, my arm would fly up, then my whole body, every five minutes or so, it's so frustrating, I was actually a bit worried about it last night, I'm wondering whether to have a chat with the doc, but I doubt there's much he can do. I'll see if the quitting caffeine helps.
Thanks for your words of encouragement, kirsty and me ol mate cas, will pass on the rollerskates tho, my sense of balance isn't quite what it used to be!
g'day x