02 June 2006 -

OK, so people do care, thank you big alf, for taking the time to knock me in to shape with your words of wisdom, and thank you to my best mate cas for your lovely email. I've pulled myself together and have stopped feeling sorry for myself. I am doing one of the best things I could ever do for myself, and my kids yes, I can do it this time, I am ready, I knew this would happen, I have been waiting for it right from the start, and now I enter the real battle, fully armoured and ready to win.

tomorrow is 50 days, I feel good, I smell good, I sleep well, I wake well, I taste well, I eat well (not so great) I feel I look good and I have many things to be thankful for. NO MORE MOOCHING, I will do this .....

x

P.s silly mood, have men's swimming trunks on, on the outside of jeans, told jack when he came in earlier it was swimming trunks on the outside of jeans day, and offered him a pair, he just looked at me as if I was nuts and went down his mates as fast as he could. Best go find him and explain I was being silly, I think he was concerned!