02 June 2006 - Bit miffed

Just got up, had a cuppa, then thought to myself something's missing? then thought oh yeah make a rolly, then realised I don't smoke, and now feel like I'm having to quit from day one again. That keeps happening, I so want a fag, I have to think of something else, this has to pass, it's just another stage of the withdrawel. Then I think would anyone really care if I smoked again, is it really such a big deal?? mum and keith keep trying to make me have a puff, well Keith don't but he's not helping, mum does, go on love, have a fag, it'll make you feel better. Where are the people that tell me if I have another ciggie they will never speak to me again! Yes I know what it does to you, how bad it is, but then the little voice, you have to die of something, so enjoy life while you're here. Is smoking really enjoyable? I remeber it as being the most heavenly thing you can do, so why on earth did I quit? Just ranting, 49 days today, I'll make it to 50 and take it from there ....

Debbie, after 3 and a half years you went back to it .... please don't tell me you still had cravings after 3 and a half years!!! AAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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Kirsty you had such a wonderful birthday, I hope mine is half as good, but I doubt it will be!

And thanks Stevie for your comment, your diary is very enjoyable! WOnder if you'll be as brave as me with the piccies!

I'll go drink a pint of water and pull myself together, I can't give up giving up now, not again! Can I?