04 June 2006 - 51 days

Yay, I got past 50 days without a fag. It's been a really tough few days for some reason but I stayed strong, with a little help from my friends. I've had a brill week off work, I'm back on wednesday. I've done nothing really, it's what I do best, 10 days off work and I had so many things planned, things I've been meaning to do for yonks, like clear the loft out etc, the only thing I, well me and my Keith, have managed to do is the garden, we've spruced it all up ready for the summer, if it comes. Well we've certainly had a good tatser of it the last couple of days.

Had a lovely evening in the garden with family last night, we've put up coloured string lights, 25 watt bulbs, all round the garden, it looked like a little grotto, loved it! Only thing that I didn't enjoy was that, yep, you guessed it, they were all smoking, and it always makes you feel like you are missing out on all the fun, I know that sounds mad but when you've smoked most of your life, and now you can't but everyone else can, you do feel like you're missing out! Just have to keep thinking I can have one if I want, I just choose not to.

Just got back form Kersney Abbey, lovely place, kept getitng ball kicked in my head by group of teenagers, so decided to leave.

Now I am going to stick some stuff on Ebay, basically anything that isn't glued down!

Why is it when you have time off work you feel like you need a holiday to recover from your 'holiday'

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