mornin all

22 April 2006
10:00:00 o'clock BST
Feeling Sad
Hearing silence Edit Entry Delete Entry

ello all

Not too much to report in, only that I could do with a rolly. Lat night was an acheivement, had a gorgeous takeaway Indian meal, a few drinks, an evening of marital activities and did not once give in to the fags, these are all major triggers of my smoking and I'm proud of myself for not quitting the quit, although I was extremely close, why do they look sooo tempting, and they still smell pretty good to me. It's funny cos I'm loving the smell of them being smoked, but the smell of stale smoke on my hubby's breath and clothes makes me gag, haven't told him cos that would be cruel, make him self conscious, but if that's what I smelt like then I feel so ashamed, all those times I went in shops, public places, stood behind people in queues, smelling like that? How embaressing.

Had a chat with keith about my teeth and he said to go for it, he knows how important it is for a woman to have a lovely smile and he said just do it, you only live once.

Well I have the weekend off, not sure what I'm gonna do yet, twas pay day Thurs so have soem dosh burning a hole. Bought a microwave yesterday cos my old one started 'singing', could be heard three doors down.

Talking of three doors down, my neighbour has sold her house, yes, you know who you are, and I'm not a happy bunny cos I'm gonna miss her. I am hoping it all falls through!

might come back later with something exciting to add .... I doubt it.

(mum just phoned, her neighbour, 70 something, has had a bad, bad tummy upset this week (bottom end) The doctor came out Tuesday and gave her Immodium, he told her she would be fine, not to worry, just drink plenty, she was rushed in to hospital yesterday due to it being no better, and now she has kidney failure, due to all the diarrhea, and isn't expected to last the day. NHS, you do such a wondeful job of caring for the elderly, hope she doesn't have the same doctor as me. Mind you I had a lump last year, he said don't worry, leave it a couple of weeks, if it is cancer then a couple of weeks won't make any difference, he didn't even look at it! Can you imagine how scared I was, my mum had just had her breast off the previous year) Don't I go on ..... I was so mellow when I smoked, didn't really give a hoot about too much, I knew this would happen, I want to:

Heal The World Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me ...



lost the plot or what