Glorious day

22 April 2006
16:16:00 o'clock BST
Feeling Happy
Hearing silence, still ...


What a beautiful day, roll on the summer. Just had a revelation, I'm spending too much time moping about, thinking I'm missing out on smoking, like it was something I really enjoyed, if it was so wonderful why did I quit? Sounds a simple thing to say but it's not simple, unless you have been a smoker you will never understand the complete brainwashing of the nicotine addiction. I'm not gonna mope about, wallowing in self pity, I've quit the weed, I am free, all I've gotta do now is catch up on lost time and enjoy the rest of my life without the black shadow ...

thanks carole (my bessie mate of 30 odd years) I know you of all people understand addiciton and I am also very proud of you for what you have acheived, it's finding the right frame of mind isn't it, any addiction, if it's something you want to do, I mean truly madly deeply want to do then it's a synch, and once you get in the 'habit' of keeping a positive frame of mind the rest follows.

I'm not worrying myself too much about diet as well, I'm having the odd piece of chocolate and donut, so what if I put on a few pounds, it's better to be energetic, look healthy and glowing, be full of confidence and smell gorgeous than to weight 6lb less, not be able to walk a flight of stairs, have a grey palour, yellow teeth, carry a big black shadow around and stink ... I'm getting to understand this addiction now, and this time it's not gonna win, I think I've sussed it, I'm not missing out on anything.

going out for a bit more sun ....