First 24 hours

My last ever quit, cold turkey, forever, this is it, this is the one... i hope
Well it's been 15 hours and 3 minutes since I had my last roll up! Should I be counting or trying to ignore? I have been building up to quitting since christmas. I tried twice last year, the first lasting a month and the second lasting two months or so. Previous withdrawel symptoms were the jitters, especially jumpy at night, mouth ulcers, I mean real bad ones, and a feeling of loss, like I had lost something and should be looking for it, then remembering what I had lost, and having the pangs, and feeling angry, then getting anxious and needing a ciggie to chill. My bank account also suffered, for some reason I felt the need to constantly reward myself on day 3, day 6, day 10, 11 and 12 and from about day 15 to 65.
What's the point in smoking?? I hate it, I stink, I feel guilty now every time I light up, every fag I smoke, the so called pleasure is combined with the little voice screaming at me, this could be the one, you could get lung cancer. It wasn't there when I was younger, but it is now, and with each passing year of smoking this disgusting weed the reality of it all gets stronger. I have 2 beautiful kids, 9 and 18, I don't want to die young, and i don't want to fill their young lungs with this crap anymore.
I have bright flashing lights in front of me now, is that a withdrawel symptom?? I reckon there's more to this quitting lark than they let on you know, they are a pretty very bright electric blue, how interesting, reminded me of a lighter spark, which reminds me, it's been 15 hours and 40 minutes, wow!
I knew this morning if I did not have that first ciggie, the morning one or two (of 30/40 per day) that I have to have before I have properly opened my eyes and even remembered what day it is, then I was on my way. I don't know how but I resisted, and here I am, 15 hours and 41 minutes later, smoke free ... I've had a lovely bath, showered myself with nice smellies, painted my nails, scrubbed the bright orange nicotine stains off my index and middle fingers, scrubbed my teeth to try and make them sparkly white (might treat myself to a professional whitening at the dentists on day 14 ish) and that's about it ... lost now, and feeling a little 'dizzy' like, how strange!
Btw, just who is that little voice that argues with you about quitting, go on, you know you want one, one won't hurt, you won't die, that's all lies, you'll get fat, you wont sleep, you're gonna spend the rest of your life in a craving hell, you only live once, so enjoy it while your here ... aaarrrgggghhhhhhhh
So this is my quitting journal, thanks to Kirsty (ksme30s) for letting us share her 'giving up' journal and for making me realise it can be done, for 101 days anyway, good luck, you go girl ....

gonna go and watch something DIY'ee now on digibox, see you all tomorrow, smoke free