25 April 2006 - 12 DAYS

12 DAYS
Let's hope today brings a little happiness. I have my next dentist appointment at 12.25, another expensive 'chat' about what he thinks the plan of action should be, not the cheapest plan of action I'm sure. Can't start any treatment till the remortgage is settled anyway!

Also going to the CAB this morning, going to try and get some advice about Talk Talk. I think I should just pay it and then fight to get it refunded, I don't want to be blacklisted. But keith doesn't think I should pay it, he thinks I will just keep getting bills, this could go on and on. It's a tricky situation. I really can't believe companies can get away with treating you like this, but today I am going to stay very calm about it all, getting stressed won't help. huh!

Martin's very depressed about his acne, I'm not sure if Roaccutane was the best route for him, every time he gets 'low' I think he's gonna do something stupid (long term side effects of the drug). His head has about 500 spots, it is very painful, he comes home with tears in his eyes because of the pain. I feel so helpless, he is so brave to carry on with his life without moaning too much, I'm not sure I would cope if I had been through what he has these last few years. I will never understand why he has got this, I know he doesn't deserve it, his life would have been so different without it. You want someone, something to blame, but there's no reason, very frustrating for him, when will it end?

Hope I get some work today, the work scene is very quiet, I don't mind all the time off but it does mean less wages at the end of the month, and with paying Talk Talk a monthly bonus I need to earn as much as I can.

How did I last yesterday without a smoke?? support from friends, a lot of willpower, a lot more willpower and then some ...

Will be back later