13 June 2006 - 59 days

Days are flying by, 59 days last quit I quit quitting, so today is a benchmark for me. I'm far too hot, I'm sat in doors working, Im pissed off, hot, pissed off, hot, hot, this house is bloody freezing in the winter but too hot in the summer, I can't breathe. The N on my keyboard keeps sticking, and it's so flipping annoying me, keeps throwing me out of sorts when I'm typing, I keep making spelling errors, which really pisses me off, headphones keep crackling, that bloody annoys me, and the power cable to my transcript machine is dodgy, the machine keeps cutting out, that is really pissing me off. I'm hot bothered and pissed off, I really, really want a cig, prolly psycological, wish this wanting a ciggie would go, people tell me it doesn't go, you only live once, enjoy it while you're here, pah, would only enjoy it if I could have a ciggie. My son keeps wanting me to buy him stuff, cos no one will employ him, cos he wears a hood, and ain't got big tits and blonde hair, money money, get me this, get me that, pisses me off, I work so hard for my money and at 18 I shouldn't have to spend it on his stoopid designer gear, baggy jeans that hang down his arse and have a stoopid £80 logo on the inside of the back left pocket. Pisses me off, for god sake get a job pleeeease ....god i'm so hot. WAnna jump in the pool, only thing is Keith took some pics of me in there yesterday, my God I've gotten so fat, I'm like a freaking elephant, I'm sure I would be 100 times happier if I just smoked and didn't eat, I'd lose weight and be so happy. I really am miserable ..