For the first time ever in my life I had the most wonderful dream, I am wondering if it signifies something. I have always been plagued by awful nightmares, and when I dream and not nightmare they are so usually magnificently bizarre and disturbing that they leave me feeling very peculiar all day. I analyse my dreams, I am a strong believer that dreams are a very good way of finding out exactly what's going on deep within your soul/mind subconsciously, and usually through figuring out fears and thoughts that are triggering such mares you can find a solution to the anxiety.
Anyways, last night in my dream I remember laughing and laughing and laughing, but I can't remember for the life of me who I was with and why we were laughing, I remember waking with a massive grin on my face, still giggling. I wish I could remember what caused such hysterics. I have never in my life had a dream like this, I can only assume that maybe it's an indication that there are changes ahead, and instead of having my usual nightmares because i feel maybe unsettled, restless and sometimes full of anxiety, this new corner I have turned in my life, starting Sainsbury's, is giving me a feeling of contentment and happiness?
Maybe I am 'normal' after all, I can do 'normal' things like other people, I'm not such a freak who sits here day after living with her fear/phobia. I have taken a massive step, I have fought all my anxieties and panics, I feel I have succeeded and passed every test with flying colours, and maybe this is the first step to gaining the freedom in my life I have been searching for for 37 years?
I couldn't have done it without my friend Gem, without her daily, hourly, at times minute by minute support I would not have done this. Gem is a friend I met through J'land just over a year ago. I don't care what AOL do now, I don't care how crap their service gets, how slow the speed is, how bad their accents are, they have given me one of the best gifts I have ever been given in my life, ma Gems:o)
6 comments:
I rarely remember my dreams.
Which is probably a good thing considering how crazy my brain is during waking hours anyway!
Awww you and Gem.
There are kind caring normal people out there in the internet.
Thats how I met Mrs B.
It is also full of nutters, murderers and horrible lying criminal types though.
Gasp!
Maybe Gem is after your Keefy!
Gasp!
:o)
Lynbo... thank you so much for the Birthday card you sent my J, he loves it! You're a very kind, thoughtful person m'dear, clever too, Mr B tells me that you made it yourself :o) So, from both of us, a heeuuuge great thank you.
xxx
You have horrid nightmares likes me too. Its great when you dont wake up scared! x x x kirsty x x x
Yes there are some mice people on the internet. I rarely remember any dreams that I have though.
How great to wake up with a smile on your face! Eileen x
I am so glad you are normal
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